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And some days, I feel i'm losing my mind... [Jul. 28th, 2008|10:47 pm]
[Current Location |Screw it...]
[Current Mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[Current Music |"Closer"- Sick Of It All]

Personality affects health?

I've been making good friends with LJ lately, haven't I?

Other than that, i'm seriously getting sick of the atmosphere around me. I honestly haven't heard anything other than bullshit small talk for the past 2 weeks or so. I nearly bit one of my associates head off, metaphorically speaking, today.

I really can't say what it is, maybe it's the fact that just about everyone around me is ridculously extraverted and aggressive in conversation and actions. Or it could be the fact that my close associates in have been grinding my last nerve away for the past 2 weeks.

Am I wrong for not babbling on constantly about nothing or not jumping up for every little thing? I just don't get it.

"I'll manipulate the stupid game
with my own confusion
and I'll be bending all the fuckin' rules
with my own self doubt
and if I seem uncomfortable
do I seem uncomfortable
it's cause I am
My own mind
my peace is hard to find
secrecy in my mind
mysteries countless as the world outside
So come closer
Drive you away" Sick Of It All "Closer"
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We didn't start the fire [Jul. 26th, 2008|08:18 am]
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[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]

Or did we?

Yup, i'm now a NYS certified Firefighter. I'z one proud wolfeh :)
I'll add more later, but I think this slideshow says quite a bit, hell, it almost made me cry at graduation. I'm gonna miss all of you guys, especially Firefighter Giggles.

Inside jokes FTW!
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Week one down. [Jul. 19th, 2008|10:30 am]
[Current Location |Home for now]
[Current Mood |determineddetermined]
[Current Music |An A/C unit]

Week one down for bootcamp.

It's been a blast so far, i've nailed everything for the most part, including the midterm we took just the other day. Moved a little slow on search and rescue but it was the first time doing it and they blinded us for it with wax paper face pieces. That and Halligan bars suck for SAR. Just too damn heavy and clunky for the most part.

One more week, I think i've got this down, wish me luck all!

Quote of the week:
(During Calling the mayday #1 practice)

Trapped FF:Command, Mayday mayday mayday.
Command: Go ahead mayday, Identify yourself.
Trapped FF: This is (name), i'm stuck between walls 2 and 3, and my marshmallow is melting! I've got SMORES!

Also, the only gentleman above 50 in the class broke through a wooden door without even touching the lock. That's just awesome right there.
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Shh...don't tell the instructors i'm not sleeping... [Jul. 14th, 2008|10:25 pm]
[Current Mood |exhaustedexhausted]

Clicky for awesomeness fursuit panorama.

Second pic in the directory. I think.

Anyway, off to dream about my happy place. And yes, that was a part of my firefighter training. Hopefully Air Consumption and the maze don't kill me too much tomorrow. Have a good one, see you all after the weekend.
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Salmon. [Jul. 13th, 2008|04:31 pm]
[Current Location |That little place called Home.]
[Current Mood |curiouscurious]
[Current Music |"Xanadu"- Rush]

Yeah, I just got salmoned. It was interesting... I disconnected for fear of a hack the first time and when I came on the second time this was the conversation.
(Behind Cutzor)
Fishy!Collapse )
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Update on stuff and things. Yes. [Jul. 13th, 2008|03:12 pm]
[Current Location |That little place called Home.]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]
[Current Music |"Cut To The Chase"- Rush]

Well, it's about time I update this... *dusts off cobwebs*

AC '08 was a freakin' blast, and I can't wait for 09. Hopefully everything goes well for me and I can get monies and time off to go. I'll probably be getting a different job next summer. I just don't really want to do lawn maintainence anymore. It's not really as fun as it used to be with some of my former employees. Concrete I don't mind oddly enough. But anyhow... AC was great, the fursuits were a blast to look at, the dealer's room was fun and the few panels and people that I did meet were great as well.

So, I start firefighter 1 boot camp tomorrow. It's going to be hell and the temperatures are supposed to be creeping up mid week. I hope i'm ready for it, I still need to go double (triple...?) check my gear at the hall and practice donning and doffing it... in 2 minutes. Everything including the air pack apparently. So hopefully that's actually feasible. So you probably won't be seeing much of me around the intarwebz, but in two weeks i'll be a NY certified exterior firefighter.

In other news, the guitar has been fixed and it's playing fine. I'm currently debating buying a delay pedal, since hell, I just love delay effects and listening to Pink Floyd just makes it more awesome.

Saw Rush up in Toronto at the Molson Amphitheater, they still got it man. They still got the crowd going with Spirit Of Radio and 2112:Overture/Temples. They also threw in The Trees and some other awesomely awesome stuff. Can't wait to hear if they're going to another album, word has it that they will be working on a new one, no other news yet.

I have a Rush tab book for guitar on order as well as a Modes and Scales book for fiddling with creating my own stuff. Working on learning limelight and the rhythym guitar for Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd. "Money" is also on my list as well.

Anyway I guess i'll get heading out for now. Have a good one everybody and I will be on when I get the chance.

"Young enough not to care too much
About the way things used to be
I'm young enough to remember the future--
The past has no claim on me

I'm old enough not to care too much
About what you think of me
But I'm young enough to remember the future
And the way things ought to be

What kind of difference
Can one person make?
Cut to the chase"- Rush "Cut To The Chase" off of "Counterparts", probably my favorite underrated album by them. But all Rush rocks anyhow...
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Just what I friggin' need. [Jun. 21st, 2008|02:16 pm]
[Current Location |Don't know, Don't care.]
[Current Mood |bitchybitchy]
[Current Music |Water running through the lizards waterfall...]

Well, my guitar decided to shit the bed today. I repositioned myself on my couch and somehow bumped the cable which must have damaged something on it. (Either that, or my amps fried. Both are not good.)

So after a little while of trying to fix it, and breaking the input jack off of the wiring, i'm surfing the web for repairs and trying to find out if it's possible for me to try it myself. After a small amount of research, all of my hits have turned up that all of the work must be done through the F-holes and that it is a complete pain in the ass. Yay.

What this is probably going to mean is that even if I do take it into a shop, I will get an outrageous quote and be screwed. So it looks like my little brown sunburst baby is out of commission for a bit, if not indefinitely.

Just spoke to a tech over the phone at Suburban Guitar Repair and I guess it's a good chance that the Input jack is shot. Good news, it's a cheap repair if that's the case and if not, they'll give me an estimate before they do any major work. So... yeah. Now i'm making a run to lockport one of these days. A nice 40 minute drive out of my way plus the gas money for it.

Maybe this is all some twisted joke to get me to spend the 250 on that used blue stratocaster I saw the other day...

Well, i'm done bitching for now.

Random note: If a Pug and Chihuahua were turned into a mutt, would it become the official Frat house dog of america?
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Funtitled. [Jun. 9th, 2008|11:11 pm]
[Current Location |Between madmen and marmalade]
[Current Mood |exhaustedexhausted]
[Current Music |Humoreske, Op. 20, - Robert Schumann]

So, how's life been there for everyone?

For me it's been every literally every day at the fire hall. Monday, Wed. Thurs., Fri, and this past weekend Sunday to be a victim for a huge drill. I feel like I haven't had a minute to sit.

I don't want to rant about the fire hall because I do have fun and the people are awesome, so I'll change the subject to what's really annoying me lately. Why would anyone want to live in a subdivision?

EVERYTHING is the same. It's like the 50's crawled out of it's grave like a zombie. I watch people scurry into their homes every time I drive be these places. Right from the car through the garage door and into the little safe abode. Maybe i'm just nuts, but how the hell can we hate interaction this freaking much? And that's coming from someone who's pretty damn introverted most of the time! I feel like there's no sense of community anymore, even at Alfred their wasn't. I understand that people want to be alone sometimes, and that's fine. I need a decent chunk of time alone to recharge myself.

Not sure if anyone's ever seen the show on WNED ( I think?) "Victory Garden" is the name, I think. They travel around showing off gardens of these beautiful homes and showing how they went about it. If you haven't, it's a cool show. Anyhow, they've shown these community gardens before, where people can basically throw together food plots, flower plots or any other type of plants. They've even done it in the city with rooftop gardening(Which is really nice!).

Maybe i'm just rambling incoherently and making an ass out of myself. (Quite possibly the case.) I just feel like there's no love for your fellow man anymore. I think the root of this post is from that accident where everyone stared as an old man was the victim of a hit and run, but still man, where's the love? Well, that's all for now I guess.

Well, here's my song lyrics for the evening:

"Here I sit so fucking shy
wondering what's going through your mind
or what you're even like
as time ticks quickly by
a life so short, incomplete
so many people I'd like to meet
feeling awkward, afraid
potential friends I could've made
why do we keep to ourselves
and not dare to leave our fucking shells
let our feelings and emotions blend
we could be the best of friends" Youth Of Today "Potential Friends"

Yeah... Signing off, and hoping someone will actually realize they don't need to scurry off when another human being comes their way, Adrius.
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Holy conundrums GasMan! [May. 19th, 2008|04:12 pm]
[Current Mood |excitedexcited]

Holy crap, I just filled my tank for 43$ at KwikFill, 3.80 a gallon! Apparently everyone gets 5 cents every gallon today! If you're in the area, hit it up!
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So... i'm back home. [May. 19th, 2008|01:32 pm]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood |awakeawake]
[Current Music |Howling at the moon (Sha-la-la)- The Ramones]

And bored out of my mind. I woke up at freakin 1200 and basically wasted my day even though I still have errands to run...

Ah well. At least the last semester went well. I ended up passing everything somehow. Can't wait for AC 08, which WILL rock if I have anything to say about it. Hopefully i'll get back on AIM and MSN in the next few days, just not really interested in chatting at the moment. Anyway, that's all i've got for now.
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