| And some days, I feel i'm losing my mind... |
[Jul. 28th, 2008|10:47 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Screw it... | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | "Closer"- Sick Of It All | ] |
Personality affects health?
I've been making good friends with LJ lately, haven't I?
Other than that, i'm seriously getting sick of the atmosphere around me. I honestly haven't heard anything other than bullshit small talk for the past 2 weeks or so. I nearly bit one of my associates head off, metaphorically speaking, today.
I really can't say what it is, maybe it's the fact that just about everyone around me is ridculously extraverted and aggressive in conversation and actions. Or it could be the fact that my close associates in have been grinding my last nerve away for the past 2 weeks.
Am I wrong for not babbling on constantly about nothing or not jumping up for every little thing? I just don't get it.
"I'll manipulate the stupid game
with my own confusion
and I'll be bending all the fuckin' rules
with my own self doubt
and if I seem uncomfortable
do I seem uncomfortable
it's cause I am
My own mind
my peace is hard to find
secrecy in my mind
mysteries countless as the world outside
So come closer
Drive you away" Sick Of It All "Closer" |
|
|
| We didn't start the fire |
[Jul. 26th, 2008|08:18 am] |
Or did we?
Yup, i'm now a NYS certified Firefighter. I'z one proud wolfeh :)
I'll add more later, but I think this slideshow says quite a bit, hell, it almost made me cry at graduation. I'm gonna miss all of you guys, especially Firefighter Giggles.
Inside jokes FTW! |
|
|
| Week one down. |
[Jul. 19th, 2008|10:30 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home for now | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  determined | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | An A/C unit | ] |
Week one down for bootcamp.
It's been a blast so far, i've nailed everything for the most part, including the midterm we took just the other day. Moved a little slow on search and rescue but it was the first time doing it and they blinded us for it with wax paper face pieces. That and Halligan bars suck for SAR. Just too damn heavy and clunky for the most part.
One more week, I think i've got this down, wish me luck all!
Quote of the week:
(During Calling the mayday #1 practice)
Trapped FF:Command, Mayday mayday mayday.
Command: Go ahead mayday, Identify yourself.
Trapped FF: This is (name), i'm stuck between walls 2 and 3, and my marshmallow is melting! I've got SMORES!
Also, the only gentleman above 50 in the class broke through a wooden door without even touching the lock. That's just awesome right there. |
|
|
| Salmon. |
[Jul. 13th, 2008|04:31 pm] |
Yeah, I just got salmoned. It was interesting... I disconnected for fear of a hack the first time and when I came on the second time this was the conversation.
(Behind Cutzor)
( Fishy! ) |
|
|
| Update on stuff and things. Yes. |
[Jul. 13th, 2008|03:12 pm] |
Well, it's about time I update this... *dusts off cobwebs*
AC '08 was a freakin' blast, and I can't wait for 09. Hopefully everything goes well for me and I can get monies and time off to go. I'll probably be getting a different job next summer. I just don't really want to do lawn maintainence anymore. It's not really as fun as it used to be with some of my former employees. Concrete I don't mind oddly enough. But anyhow... AC was great, the fursuits were a blast to look at, the dealer's room was fun and the few panels and people that I did meet were great as well.
So, I start firefighter 1 boot camp tomorrow. It's going to be hell and the temperatures are supposed to be creeping up mid week. I hope i'm ready for it, I still need to go double (triple...?) check my gear at the hall and practice donning and doffing it... in 2 minutes. Everything including the air pack apparently. So hopefully that's actually feasible. So you probably won't be seeing much of me around the intarwebz, but in two weeks i'll be a NY certified exterior firefighter.
In other news, the guitar has been fixed and it's playing fine. I'm currently debating buying a delay pedal, since hell, I just love delay effects and listening to Pink Floyd just makes it more awesome.
Saw Rush up in Toronto at the Molson Amphitheater, they still got it man. They still got the crowd going with Spirit Of Radio and 2112:Overture/Temples. They also threw in The Trees and some other awesomely awesome stuff. Can't wait to hear if they're going to another album, word has it that they will be working on a new one, no other news yet.
I have a Rush tab book for guitar on order as well as a Modes and Scales book for fiddling with creating my own stuff. Working on learning limelight and the rhythym guitar for Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd. "Money" is also on my list as well.
Anyway I guess i'll get heading out for now. Have a good one everybody and I will be on when I get the chance.
"Young enough not to care too much
About the way things used to be
I'm young enough to remember the future--
The past has no claim on me
I'm old enough not to care too much
About what you think of me
But I'm young enough to remember the future
And the way things ought to be
What kind of difference
Can one person make?
Cut to the chase"- Rush "Cut To The Chase" off of "Counterparts", probably my favorite underrated album by them. But all Rush rocks anyhow... |
|
|
| Just what I friggin' need. |
[Jun. 21st, 2008|02:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Don't know, Don't care. | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Water running through the lizards waterfall... | ] |
Well, my guitar decided to shit the bed today. I repositioned myself on my couch and somehow bumped the cable which must have damaged something on it. (Either that, or my amps fried. Both are not good.)
So after a little while of trying to fix it, and breaking the input jack off of the wiring, i'm surfing the web for repairs and trying to find out if it's possible for me to try it myself. After a small amount of research, all of my hits have turned up that all of the work must be done through the F-holes and that it is a complete pain in the ass. Yay.
What this is probably going to mean is that even if I do take it into a shop, I will get an outrageous quote and be screwed. So it looks like my little brown sunburst baby is out of commission for a bit, if not indefinitely.
Just spoke to a tech over the phone at Suburban Guitar Repair and I guess it's a good chance that the Input jack is shot. Good news, it's a cheap repair if that's the case and if not, they'll give me an estimate before they do any major work. So... yeah. Now i'm making a run to lockport one of these days. A nice 40 minute drive out of my way plus the gas money for it.
Maybe this is all some twisted joke to get me to spend the 250 on that used blue stratocaster I saw the other day...
Well, i'm done bitching for now.
Random note: If a Pug and Chihuahua were turned into a mutt, would it become the official Frat house dog of america? |
|
|
| Funtitled. |
[Jun. 9th, 2008|11:11 pm] |
So, how's life been there for everyone?
For me it's been every literally every day at the fire hall. Monday, Wed. Thurs., Fri, and this past weekend Sunday to be a victim for a huge drill. I feel like I haven't had a minute to sit.
I don't want to rant about the fire hall because I do have fun and the people are awesome, so I'll change the subject to what's really annoying me lately. Why would anyone want to live in a subdivision?
EVERYTHING is the same. It's like the 50's crawled out of it's grave like a zombie. I watch people scurry into their homes every time I drive be these places. Right from the car through the garage door and into the little safe abode. Maybe i'm just nuts, but how the hell can we hate interaction this freaking much? And that's coming from someone who's pretty damn introverted most of the time! I feel like there's no sense of community anymore, even at Alfred their wasn't. I understand that people want to be alone sometimes, and that's fine. I need a decent chunk of time alone to recharge myself.
Not sure if anyone's ever seen the show on WNED ( I think?) "Victory Garden" is the name, I think. They travel around showing off gardens of these beautiful homes and showing how they went about it. If you haven't, it's a cool show. Anyhow, they've shown these community gardens before, where people can basically throw together food plots, flower plots or any other type of plants. They've even done it in the city with rooftop gardening(Which is really nice!).
Maybe i'm just rambling incoherently and making an ass out of myself. (Quite possibly the case.) I just feel like there's no love for your fellow man anymore. I think the root of this post is from that accident where everyone stared as an old man was the victim of a hit and run, but still man, where's the love? Well, that's all for now I guess.
Well, here's my song lyrics for the evening:
"Here I sit so fucking shy
wondering what's going through your mind
or what you're even like
as time ticks quickly by
a life so short, incomplete
so many people I'd like to meet
feeling awkward, afraid
potential friends I could've made
why do we keep to ourselves
and not dare to leave our fucking shells
let our feelings and emotions blend
we could be the best of friends" Youth Of Today "Potential Friends"
Yeah... Signing off, and hoping someone will actually realize they don't need to scurry off when another human being comes their way, Adrius. |
|
|
| Holy conundrums GasMan! |
[May. 19th, 2008|04:12 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  excited | ] |
Holy crap, I just filled my tank for 43$ at KwikFill, 3.80 a gallon! Apparently everyone gets 5 cents every gallon today! If you're in the area, hit it up! |
|
|
| So... i'm back home. |
[May. 19th, 2008|01:32 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Howling at the moon (Sha-la-la)- The Ramones | ] |
And bored out of my mind. I woke up at freakin 1200 and basically wasted my day even though I still have errands to run...
Ah well. At least the last semester went well. I ended up passing everything somehow. Can't wait for AC 08, which WILL rock if I have anything to say about it. Hopefully i'll get back on AIM and MSN in the next few days, just not really interested in chatting at the moment. Anyway, that's all i've got for now. |
|
|
| On creativity |
[May. 7th, 2008|12:11 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | T3h D0rmz | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | A slamming door down the hall... | ] |
Why are people so quick to destroy themselves just because a black box with some schmucks toting beer around tell them to? I'm honestly sick of watching people throw away so much talent just because they feel like they're worthless. When did we stop thinking that we could accomplish anything? I mean, regardless of theological beliefs, you cannot tell me that man was not put here for something more than to just wander around, get drunk, and watch reality TV. We were put here to create, to explore, and most importantly, TO THINK. It's depressing to watch so much potential in the world get sucked down the drain because instead of writing that novel they have been working on for 15 years, the author goes and gets high, or the hobbyist poet gets drunk and slams his car into a tree. Hell, it's not even that, the fools who watch follow the pop culture idols of our day and that follow every new trend, never stopping to think of what their hands might just be capable of. Or the person that belittles their own talents for nothing. I'm even guilty of it, but I can't write myself off completely. The work I do usually won't come close to seeing the light of day at this point but I do TRY.
I guess the main point i'm trying to make, is that regardless of what the TV tells you and regardless of what society mocks you for, there is still always room to expand your knowledge. Never stop striving to create. I guess i'll leave you with some lyrics real quick:
"Sitting down on a couch, you watch,
a fucking slave to a TV show.
You thought before but you sat and dropped.
What did you learn? You don't even know.
It's a brain vacation. A mental masturbation.
It steals my time and it wastes what I've learned.
I'm holding out
for some reality.
I'd like to say that I could spend a day at home with it left off.
How strong's our will?
Stand still!" Gorilla Biscuits 'Stand Still'
Seriously, for whoever's reading this, don't sell yourself short, today's starving artist is a modern hero in a cultural wasteland. Hats off to you guys, and i'm heading to bed. |
|
|
| Ugh...stress. |
[May. 1st, 2008|01:04 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Somewhere! | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Food network? | ] |
So... it's that time of year again, eh? The semester is finally coming to an end and everything is toppling down on top of everyone, especially me, since i'm too stupid to actually drop classes of mine when I know i'm not going to do well in them. All because i've got to be stubborn with that whole "I've got this..." attitude. Guess it's really not that bad though.
On an awesome note, i'm basically set to head to Anthrocon with my good buddy Valdyr and some of our friends. It's gonna friggin' rock.
I'm apparently playing bass for the hardcore Straight Edge band Fall of A Hero out of grand island, my bro will be doing vocals so it's promising to be an interesting summer. I'm really gonna have to make a decision on whether I want to stay with my fire department this summer as well. I'm really not even sure if it's for me anymore.
On an ending note comprised of no sleep...
-Gnomes explode into confetti when you hit them on the nose with copper.
-Of all man's creations, money is the worst.
-I really need to start blogging more often. What can I say? Life is hectic. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 8th, 2008|11:19 am] |
Jung typology thing
I got INFP. Yay. Here's a ridiculously long article explaining just what the heck that means Click meh.
It was fun to read through it, although the test is worded really word and kind of leads your answers. I mean, how the hell do you have Yes or No for half of the questions. Alot of them are conditional. But anyway, I think INFP fits me for the most part.
Interested in finding your Jung personality type? Go ahead, it's an interesting way to kill a few minutes. Have fun.
Use as directed. Results may vary. Side effects may include ROFLcopter impersonations, exploding gnomes and confetti. |
|
|
| Happy New Year! |
[Jan. 2nd, 2008|11:47 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | BB King- "Worry, Worry" | ] |
Yeah so I might be a bit late with my usual new years post, but oh well.
Spent new years hanging around with the family, playing guitar and guitar hero (Oh the options!). Much snackage ensued. My brother decided it would be a good idea to piss me off and we ended up breaking my guitar. Busted the input jack out of it's hole. Let me just say, thank God for F-holes XD.
About an hour of time with a few twist tie hooks, wire and tape and we guided the jack back to
the hole. (I'm surprised I didn't make a "That's what she said" joke. So with Karen out of "surgery", I wrung in the new year with some good friends and family.
Since i'm sure someone will ask eventually, just what are my resolutions? I wonder if I can do this all with song lyrics...:
"Next time I'll try, for the first time in my
life. It won't pass me by. Procrastinate it
can wait, I put it off.
LET'S START TODAY" 'Start Today'-Gorilla Biscuits
Excersize. (Heh...I don't know any lyrics for that.)
That's basically it oddly enough.
Anyhow, i'll wrap this thing up real quick. Have a good one everyone.
And yes, i'm so bad ass I named my guitar. :P |
|
|
| Grades and random holiday jokes |
[Dec. 24th, 2007|11:50 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Room. | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Two Gallants- My Baby's Gone | ] |
So I finally got my grades and I managed a 3.13 GPA for this semester. Hopefully I can keep it up next round.
And i'ma repost something I found on the EMTB group here on LJ:
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle Bells, Jingle,Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,
Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells
Attention Deficit Disorder
Silent night, Holy oooh look at the froggy - can I have a chocolate, why is France so far away?
Personality Disorder
You Better Watch Out, I'm Gonna Cry, I'm Gonna Pout, Maybe I'll Tell You Why
Borderline Personality Disorder
Thoughts of Roasting on an Open Fire
Paranoid
Santa Claus is Coming to Town to Get Me
Dementia
I Think I'll be Home for Christmas
Manic
Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and Stores and Office and Town and Cars and Buses and Trucks and Trees and . . .
Narcissistic
Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me
Multiple Personality Disorder
We Three Kings Disoriented Are
Schizophrenia
Do You Hear What I Hear? |
|
|
| LOL! DnD! |
[Dec. 18th, 2007|07:47 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | T3h Lounge | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Weakest Link Theme thingy | ] |
I Am A: Lawful Good Human Cleric (2nd Level)
Ability Scores:
Strength-12
Dexterity-11
Constitution-12
Intelligence-14
Wisdom-14
Charisma-11
Alignment:
Lawful Good A lawful good character acts as a good person is expected or required to act. He combines a commitment to oppose evil with the discipline to fight relentlessly. He tells the truth, keeps his word, helps those in need, and speaks out against injustice. A lawful good character hates to see the guilty go unpunished. Lawful good is the best alignment you can be because it combines honor and compassion. However, lawful good can be a dangerous alignment because it restricts freedom and criminalizes self-interest.
Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.
Class:
Clerics act as intermediaries between the earthly and the divine (or infernal) worlds. A good cleric helps those in need, while an evil cleric seeks to spread his patron's vision of evil across the world. All clerics can heal wounds and bring people back from the brink of death, and powerful clerics can even raise the dead. Likewise, all clerics have authority over undead creatures, and they can turn away or even destroy these creatures. Clerics are trained in the use of simple weapons, and can use all forms of armor and shields without penalty, since armor does not interfere with the casting of divine spells. In addition to his normal complement of spells, every cleric chooses to focus on two of his deity's domains. These domains grants the cleric special powers, and give him access to spells that he might otherwise never learn. A cleric's Wisdom score should be high, since this determines the maximum spell level that he can cast.
Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus</a></b> (e-mail)
|
|
|
| Life, exams, meh. |
[Dec. 6th, 2007|01:56 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | T3h D0rmz | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Ghost Rider- Rush | ] |
Long time no post, eh?
Well, the semesters wrapping up here, leaving me panicking about grades as usual and trying to finish up final projects.
Lessee... what's new up here. This past weekend was pretty fun, we held a bit of a birthday party for ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) valdyrfenris and then held a Lorwyn draft tournament for the Alfred Roleplaying Guild. All in all, I think everyone had a pretty good time. A few jerks managed to sneak through the tournament, but, no biggie.
Anyone who knows me, knows I enjoy helping people. But i've noticed something as of late. Sure I can do my medical work, but when it comes to helping people emotionally, i've realized I have no skill at all. I'm just overwhelmed by it for some reason, and it seriously bothers me that I can't open my freakin' mouth to say nearly anything in these situations.
In lighter news, I bring you LOLcats:
moar funny pictures
I guess i'll end this with an excerpt of some lyrics, from Rush's album Counterparts, "Everyday Glory":
Everyday people
Everyday shame
Everyday promise shot down in flames
Everyday sunrise
Another everyday story
Rise from the ashes and blaze
In everyday glory
If the future's looking dark
We're the ones who have to shine
If there's no one in control
We're the ones who draw the line
Though we live in trying times
We're the ones who have to try
Though we know that time has wings
We're the ones who have to fly...
|
|
|
| 2:40 and sleepless... |
[Oct. 7th, 2007|02:40 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | t3h D0rm | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Reel Big Fish- "Where Have You Been?" | ] |
What a surprise... it's 2:40 in the morning and the "Retirement Community" decides to hold some stupid party.
This weekend was pretty mellow actually...hung out and played Magic for a bit tonight, ended up downtown for the Children's Festival manning a booth with the Roleplaying Guild. Was a pretty good time, although I sort of feel bad I wasn't able to help with much, since it was basically get your picture taken with one of our guildmates in costume... of course it has be close to 85 degrees for someone in a full fursuit, which sucks.
But other than that nothing much else happened... just stuck up at 2:45 with a nice bout of Acute Insomnia. Hell, maybe i'll write a song about it, i've become pretty good friends with it lately. Eh, that's about all I feel like writing right now, hopefully i'm not making more posts on this tonight and i'll actually get some sleep. |
|
|
| If life were a rock.... |
[Sep. 30th, 2007|11:24 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | T3h d0rm | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Gbe Kini Ohun De- King Sunny Adé | ] |
(No, I don't know what the title is supposed to mean...)
As for anything interesting happening lately... the power went out for a second time this semester for about 4 hours. During that time, many Lulz were had from my friend proclaiming the great order of the potato( or was it tinfoil?). Who would've thought an emergency blanket could be so fun?
Haven't done much on the guitar lately except for coming up with random riffs and not practicing as much as I should, although lessons would help.
I recently started to look for hiking trails out here to keep myself in shape a bit, even though I get more than enough excersize from walking around campus every day. Of course there is nothing within walking distance...guess i'll have to keep looking some more. If anyone knows of any, feel free to point them out :D
I just realized mid-terms are coming up! AGHH!!! Must...study...and not get distracted by my laptop... too late.
Hopefully things are going well for everyone else, and I hope everyone else with midterms does well on them! Cause edumacation is the best thing for the mindz. :P
I think i'm gonna call it a night then, have a good one all! |
|
|
| Promised update...albeit a bit late |
[Sep. 10th, 2007|07:41 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | T3h D0rm | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Flat Top- Goo Goo Dolls | ] |
"Make up your mind to keep your mind up
And to your life be loyal
Nothing comes from nothing, come on Royal Oil" -Mighty Mighty Bosstones "Royal Oil"
Hey all! Figured i'd make a quick post here, update a bit. I've been trying to get on here more often, but it's still a big distraction for doing classwork. Anyhow, my campus had a power outage this past weekend due to a transformer being nailed by a lightning strike. Of course, that meant a late night for me... but it wasn't all that bad, I hung out with some friends during my downtime. Ended up joining a World Of Darkness campaign, really looks like it's going to be fun.
I wish i'd gotten some experience working in EMS before I got put on call. I still know my skills, it's just that I have very little equipment here, and it's tough to make decisions on how to use that equipment to the best of my ability. Hopefully I can get in with a corp. back home over christmas break...
On a happier note, I found a guitar teacher out here. He teaches Blues, Jazz, Rock and classical guitar. I'll call him within the next few days and see how the pricing of his lessons are going to be, i'll probably end up going for Blues or Jazz guitar. Well, i've got some assignments to work on and i'm On Call tonight, so I guess i'll update again sometime. Thanks for reading :) |
|
|
curious
anxious